My friend Billye told me several years ago when she turned about 80 that getting old is not for sissies. I laughed and probably thought I just would pass that "old" problem on to others and I would stay a young perky woman for the rest of my life. Just ask my daughters...I can outwork either one of them and I just turned 69. Last week in fact I had a birthday. 69...I can't believe it. I don't know what you are suppose to feel like at 69 but on Friday of last week I felt just great.
Then came Saturday night. I turned over in bed and wallllllay..... a pain running from my back down my left leg. It actually hurt to turn over. I had to get up early because we have started a prayer thing at church where we are going to take turns going early to pray for the Sunday Service and the people who come. This was the Sunday that Bud and I had agreed to go. My leg hurt a little just to walk but I managed. As the day progressed my walking got slower and more painful. Monday night I slept very little which meant I was calling Dr. Finnley first thing Monday morning. I made an appointment at 2:30 and hobbled into the office. I left with two perscription for muscle relaxers and Relafen. He told me it would take a couple of days and call him if I needed pain medicine.
About 2:00 this morning (Tuesday) I am digging in the closet for pain medicine...any old bottle of pain medicine. I felt like I had a knife in my butt ripping down my thigh to my knee. I understand how you can get hooked on prescription drugs. I would have killed for some relief. I finally found some hydrocodone left over from mother. We always gave Daddy and mother a hard time because Daddy called that his "nerve pill" and mother decided if it helped him she would take it also so by the time she was living with me she was taking l/2 of a pill each night. Could this be the "sins of the parents visited upon the children"?
Anyway, today the Dr. made me an appointment for an MRI and a prescription for pain pills. I have been on drugs for over 24 hours and I can still barely drag myself to the bathroom. So I began to think about:
MY LIVING WILL > > > > Last night my sister and I were sitting in the den and > I said to her, 'I never want to live in a vegetative > state, dependent on some machine and fluids from a > bottle to keep me alive. That would be no quality of > life at all, If that ever happens, just pull the > plug.' > > So she got up, unplugged the computer, and threw out > my wine. > > She thinks she's funny.
Thanks Billye for warning me, "GETTING OLD AIN'T FOR SISSIES".
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Laugh for the day:
Giving money and power to government is like giving whiskey and car keys to teenage boys.
• If you think “socialism” when you hear Barack say “change,” then you might be a redneck.
• If you think there’s nothing about San Francisco that a rise in the ocean level could not cure, then you might be a redneck.
• If you think slick politicians who rise from a political dung heap like Chicago might not be the fresh breeze they purport to be, then you might be a redneck.
• If you think Michael Moore is John Murtha and Joy Behar’s love child, then you might be a redneck.
• If you actually believe Obama’s close buddy Bill Ayers when he says he’s an anarchist, a Marxist and is unashamed of bombing the Pentagon and the Capitol building, then you might be a redneck.
• If you think Jeremiah Wright, Obama’s pastor for 20 years, is more unhinged than a spider monkey that just had turpentine poured on its butt, then you might be a redneck.
• If you get PO’ed because the vast majority of our college campuses spew anti-American rhetoric to your young ‘uns, then you might be a redneck.
• If you think it’s kind of weird for Obama to be close friends with some of the most unpatriotic SOBs in the USA, then you might be a redneck.
• If you don’t like your kids being taught in the public schools that America is an oppressive, imperialistic country that needs a heavy dose of Marxism to make it better, then you might be a redneck.
• If you’d prefer your kids not be a part of an elementary education that has thoroughly been queered—their words, not mine—then you might be a redneck.
• If you’re looking for a new name to call acorns after this election cycle because the fraudulent voter registration group ACORN has sullied the name of this innocent nut, then you might be a redneck.
• If you like Joe the Plumber’s tax plan more than Joe “the Bumbler” Biden’s tax scam, then you might be a redneck. Read it all here.
"February 3, 2008." That's how I began my speech to the CIBO annual meeting last night in Charlotte. "11.5," I added. "Remember that date and that number."
I did my act for about 25 minutes and then came back to the date and the number. February 3 was the date of Superbowl XLII between the New York Giants and the New England Patriots.
The Patriots came into the game 18-0 and were 11-and-a-half point favorites to beat the Giants who were a mediocre 10-6 in the regular season.
The Giants hadn't even won their division. The Dallas Cowboys at 13-3 had cruised to that honor. The Pats had already beaten the Giants in New York with its golden-boy quarterback Tom Brady. The Giant's quarterback was the lesser of the two Manning brothers - Eli - not the darling of TV commercial producers, brother Peyton was the Giant's quarterback.
No one in the near solar system thought the Giants had a prayer, hence the bookies made them 11.5 point underdogs. Read the rest here.
No matter who becomes president on Nov. 4, I'm proud to be an American, and others are too. Let's not hear evangelical muttering about leaving the country if a disliked candidate wins next Tuesday. Read the rest here.
Matthew 6:34 "Therefore do not be anxious for tomorrow; for tomorrow will care fore itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
James had a really rough week. It started out on Monday with his trip to see the Oncologist Dr. who was in charge of chemo. He had already made the decision not to do chemo so they really didn't understand why they were there. I understand: It is called Drs. making money on sick people. After Shaila asked some questions about the side effect and telling them they had made the decision not to do chemo the Dr. left the room. They visited with an intern and called their primary oncologist and ask why they were scheduled there in the first place. They will not be going back to the chemo oncologist. They were told in office that James had a temperature but he was sent home without their addressing that problem. Later that evening about 10:00 P.M. James temperature went way up so they ended up in the emergency room. This could have been avoided if the Dr. had taken care to address it in his office. They spent the night at the emergency room with James getting 2 bottles of antibiotic intravenously. They got home about 5:30, slept until 8:30 and got ready for home health. Anyway, after 24 hours James began to feel better. They were told he had an infection in the tube that drains into his stomach. This happened a few weeks ago and they think it never got cleared up so it had come back. Anyway, James is feeling much better. He has been up and out a little. I had to laugh when I was told that he had gone to vote. Can't keep a good man down. If they can keep that tube from getting infected I think he will have some good days. He does not go back to the Dr. until November 18th to see if the radiation shrunk the tumor. He has really been pleased with the physical thearpy and home health taking care of his daily care. They just need some rest. Shaila spent the week and they had a really good day on Sunday for their anniversary. Thanks again for all you emails, prayers and thoughts. One day at a time is all any of us have so that is the way we will take this whole ordeal.
Memories come flooding back as I look at the pictures I am rounding up to send to Shaila for your scrapbook. Where have all the years gone? James, I was 11 when we moved to Kress and you went off to protect our country in the Navy. You were such a handsome big brother and boy were you handsome in your navy uniform. I remember being so proud of you. I was just a kid but you always treated me so kind. (If that's not true you can blame it on old age but that's what I remember...not so much with Bobby but that's another story. LOL). I remember how mother worried about you and going to the mail box daily was a big event. Then you came home and lived for awhile on the farm at Kress. I guess you worked for Daddy on the farm before you went to Lubbock to Draughn s Business College. During that time you met that cute little blonde Shari Watts in Plainview. I was 15 and sometimes you would take me with you to town. I thought I was pretty special hanging out with Shari, Sue and their older friends. Shari, you and Sue were always so sweet to me and I remember spending the night at your house in that upstairs bedroom. Your folks always welcomed this little sister into their home. I loved your mother and daddy. James, I told Shaila this summer how I remember you telling mother and daddy that they couldn't expect a 15-16 year old girl to just stay at home out on the farm all the time. You were the best brother. You would take me into Plainview to the movies and to drag main street, hang out at the drive in and then pretty soon we would have Shari hanging out with us. Those were some really fun days...about 53 years ago. When you got married we were living in Olton and ya'll were the cutest couple. James you were always so handsome and Shari you were so cute. Brother Jennings who had been our minister for many years married you as well as Tia Juana, Mary Lu and I. They were good friends as well as our minister. As I said, ya'll were so cute but who is that tacky frizzy headed girl standing with you? I do remember the best man was Wayne Moore. I wonder where old Wayne is now? And, then here is your picture outside the front door in your "going away" outfit. Where did you go away by the way? I found this picture of my wedding shower with Shari and it reminded me how you were always there for me. You were like a big sister. Weren't we cute? I am sure we thought we were. There is a picture of you and James at our wedding. James was an usher I believe. Ya'll were such a cute couple. That was 1962. The years have come and gone. Some hard, some joyous. I will never forget James knocking on my door after we got the news that Bud's Dad had committed suicide. Bud had gone on to Winters to be with him mother and the girls and I were to come later. That was during the hard years we went through in the economic slow down of the late 70ties. President Carter had put an embargo on grain and agriculture business were really struggling until Reagan was elected and helped turn things around. Bud was having a hard time finding work because they had put a freeze on all agriculture jobs. (A little history here) Anyway, times were pretty hard and I guess you knew it James because you gave me a $100.00 bill and said to use it for whatever I needed. I could fill my gas tank up for probably $20.00 so that was a real God send. James you have always been a tough sounding guy but you have a tender heart. So much like Daddy in many ways. He talked tough but if someone needed money he would loan it to them knowing he might not ever see them again. Thanks for being that kind of a person. We need the tough guys and you can be one but we also need the tender. Daddy taught us, "You have to instill fear into kids but you overcome that fear with love". You are that kind of a man. Shari, you have been there for James through thick and thin. I know there have been days that you could just kick him (like I said, he can be tough) but you loved him and were always there when he needed you. You have modeled what a marriage should be for your children and grandchildren. 1 Cor. 13 says, "...love is patient, love is kind,...." That is the kind of love you guys have had these 52 years.
Happy Anniversary to you. We love you. Your "Little" Sis Wilma
There has been a lot in the news the last couple of days about Joe Plumber.
This is one of the main issues in the 2008 Presidential Election. TAXES
If Barack Obama wins the election both of my sons in law will be in a heap of hurt. You see they are both "small businessmen". One of my son in laws is in Construction. Greg has 2 and sometimes 3 crews working most days. There is no way Greg can pay Health Care on 9-12 people, much less taxes that will be levied on his small business. Greg will probably go back to pounding nails which is what he loves to do. This will mean 9-12 men will lose their jobs and several families will be out of work.
My other son in law Bruce has a landscape business as well as small reconstruction. He hires 2-3 full time employees and several part time employees. The same problems hold true for him if Obama wins. Several people will be out of work and my daughter and her family will be in a difficult time in their life. What do you do when the government makes it nearly impossible to do business today. I know one thing. They will both find a job and feed their families but it may not be doing what they are doing now. What will happen to the 10 families they employ? Will they go on the welfare rolls?
Republicans have found themselves in disarray. They use to be known as the small government and low taxes party. They certainly have strayed from the party that I have been a part of the past many years. Frankly I don't know what has happened but I pray John McCain will get his act together, remember what our party is all about and speak plainly to the American People. Obama is a great speaker and he can certainly sway a crowd. As many said about Governor Palin this is a talent and cannot be learned. He is a natural. But beneath his eloquent speech Obama is the most liberal candidate that has ever run for our country's highest office.
If Obama wins we will become a socialist country and he and Congress will "share the wealth" ,we will have abortion on demand, and they will try to take away our guns. We will get 3 new liberal Supreme Court Judges to name just a few changes.
BE AFRAID...VERY AFRAID!!! and I might add PRAY LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER PRAYED BEFORE AND PRAY FOR MERCY FOR OUR GREAT LAND. GOD WONT ASK US WHO WE VOTED FOR HE WILL ALREADY KNOW AND HE WILL KNOW WHAT OUR MORAL STANDARDS WERE.
Did we vote for the candidate that upholds life and supports Christian Values? That is the question we need to ask ourselves when we go into the voting booth.
Why I (A Black Man) Can't Vote For Obama I wanted to send this article from Huntley Brown - he is a fabulous concert pianist, man of God and is a black man. I would like to see this article published or spread out via Email to as many as possible. It's good stuff! Listen to Huntley here
Dear Friends, A few months ago I was asked for my perspective on Obama, I sent out an email with a few points. With the election just around the corner I decided to complete my perspective. Those of you on my e-list have seen some of this before but it's worth repeating...
First I must say whoever wins the election will have my prayer support. Obama needs to be commended for his accomplishments but I need to explain why I will not be voting for him.
Many of my friends process their identity through their blackness. I process my identity through Christ. Being a Christian (a Christ follower) means He leads I follow. I can't dictate the terms He does because He is the leader.
I can't vote black because I am black; I have to vote Christian because that's who I am. Christian first, black second. Neither should anyone from the other ethnic groups vote because of ethnicity. 200 years from now I won't be asked if I was black or white. I will be asked if I knew Jesus and accepted Him as Lord and Savior.
In an election there are many issues to consider but when a society gets abortion, same-sex marriage, embryonic stem-cell research, human cloning to name a few, wrong economic concerns will soon not matter.
We need to follow Martin Luther King's words, don't judge someone by the color of their skin but by the content of their character. I don't know Obama so all I can go off is his voting record. His voting record earned him the title of the most liberal senator in the US Senate in 2007. NATIONAL JOURNAL: Obama: Most Liberal Senator in 2007 (01/31/2008) To beat Ted Kennedy and Hilary Clinton as the most liberal senator, takes some doing. Obama accomplished this feat in 2 short years. I wonder what would happen to America if he had four years to work with.
There is a reason Planned Parenthood gives him a 100 % rating. There is a reason the homosexual community supports him. There is a reason Ahmadinejad, Chavez, Castro, Hamas etc. love him. There is a reason he said he would nominate liberal judges to the Supreme Court. There is a reason he voted against the infanticide bill. There is a reason he voted No on the constitutional ban of same-sex marriage. There is a reason he voted No on banning partial birth abortion. There is a reason he voted No on confirming Justices Roberts and Alito. These two judges are conservatives and they have since overturned partial birth abortion. The same practice Obama wanted to continue. Let's take a look at the practice he wanted to continue The 5 Step Partial Birth Abortion procedures:
A. Guided by ultrasound, the abortionist grabs the baby's leg with forceps. (Remember this is a live baby) B. The baby's leg is pulled out into the birth canal. C. The abortionist delivers the baby's entire body, except for the head. D. The abortionist jams scissors into the baby's skull. The scissors are then opened to enlarge the hole. E. The scissors are removed and a suction catheter is inserted. The child's brains are sucked out, causing the skull to collapse. The dead baby is then removed. God help him. There is a reason Obama opposed the parental notification law.
Think about this: You can't give a kid an aspirin without parental notification but that same kid can have an abortion without parental notification. This is insane. There is a reason he went to Jeremiah Wright's church for 20 years.
Obama tells us he has good judgment but he sat under Jeremiah Wright teaching for 20 years. Now he is condemning Wright's sermons. I wonder why now?
Obama said Jeremiah Wright led him to the Lord and discipled him. A disciple is one in training. Jesus told us in Matthew 28:19 - 20 "Go and make disciples of all nations." This means reproduce yourself. Teach people to think like you, walk like you; talk like you believe what you believe etc. The question I have is what did Jeremiah Wright teach him?
Would you support a White President who went to a church which has tenets that said they have a
1. Commitment to the White Community 2. Commitment to the White Family 3. Adherence to the White Work Ethic 4. Pledge to make the fruits of all developing and acquired skills available to the White Community. 5. Pledge to Allocate Regularly, a Portion of Personal Resources for Strengthening and Supporting White Institutions 6. Pledge allegiance to all White leadership who espouse and embrace the White Value System 7. Personal commitment to embracement of the White Value System.
Would you support a President who went to a church like that?
Just change the word from white to black and you have the tenets of Obama's former church. If President Bush was a member of a church like this, he would be called a racist. Jessie Jackson and Al Sharpton would have been marching outside.
This kind of church is a racist church. Obama did not wake up after 20 years and just discovered he went to a racist church. The church can't be about race. Jesus did not come for any particular race. He came for the whole world.
A church can't have a value system based on race. The churches value system has to be based on biblical mandate. It does not matter if it's a white church or a black church it's still wrong. Anyone from either race that attends a church like this would never get my vote.
Obama's former Pastor Jeremiah Wright is a disciple of liberal theologian James Cone, author of the 1970 book A Black Theology of Liberation. Cone once wrote: "Black theology refuses to accept a God who is not identified totally with the goals of the black community. If God is not for us and against white people, then he is a murderer, and we had better kill him.
Cone is the man Obama's mentor looks up to. Does Obama believe this?
So what does all this mean for the nation?
In the past when the Lord brought someone with the beliefs of Obama to lead a nation it meant one thing - judgment.
Read 1 Samuel 8 when Israel asked for a king. First God says in 1 Samuel 1:9 "Now listen to them; but warn them solemnly and let them know what the king who will reign over them will do."
Then God says
1 Samuel 1:18 " When that day comes, you will cry out for relief from the king you have chosen, and the LORD will not answer you in that day." 19 But the people refused to listen to Samuel. "No!" they said. "We want a king over us. 20 Then we will be like all the other nations, with a king to lead us and to go out before us and fight our battles." 21 When Samuel heard all that the people said, he repeated it before the LORD. 22 The LORD answered, "Listen to them and give them a king."
Here is what we know for sure.
God is not schizophrenic
He would not tell one person to vote for Obama and one to vote for McCain. As the scripture says, a city divided against itself cannot stand, so obviously many people are not hearing from God.
Maybe I am the one not hearing but I know God does not change and Obama contradicts many things I read in scripture so I doubt it.
For all my friends who are voting for Obama can you really look God in the face and say; Father based on your word, I am voting for Obama even though I know he will continue the genocidal practice of partial birth abortion. He might have to nominate three or four Supreme Court justices, and I am sure he will be nominating liberal judges who will be making laws that are against you. I also know he will continue to push for homosexual rights, even though you destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah for this. I know I can look the other way because of the economy.
I could not see Jesus agreeing with many of Obama's positions. Finally I have two questions for all my liberal friends.
Since we know someone's value system has to be placed on the nation,
1. Whose value system should be placed on the nation.
2. Who should determine that this is the right value system for the nation?
Obama's Abortion Extremism by Robert George Oct 14, 2008 Sen. Barack Obama's views on life issues ranging from abortion to embryonic stem cell research mark him as not merely a pro-choice politician, but rather as the most extreme pro-abortion candidate to have ever run on a major party ticket.
Barack Obama is the most extreme pro-abortion candidate ever to seek the office of President of the United States. He is the most extreme pro-abortion member of the United States Senate. Indeed, he is the most extreme pro-abortion legislator ever to serve in either house of the United States Congress. Yet there are Catholics and Evangelicals-even self-identified pro-life Catholics and Evangelicals - who aggressively promote Obama's candidacy and even declare him the preferred candidate from the pro-life point of view.
What is going on here?
I have examined the arguments advanced by Obama's self-identified pro-life supporters, and they are spectacularly weak. It is nearly unfathomable to me that those advancing them can honestly believe what they are saying. But before proving my claims about Obama's abortion extremism, let me explain why I have described Obama as ''pro-abortion'' rather than ''pro-choice.''
According to the standard argument for the distinction between these labels, nobody is pro-abortion. Everybody would prefer a world without abortions. After all, what woman would deliberately get pregnant just to have an abortion? But given the world as it is, sometimes women find themselves with unplanned pregnancies at times in their lives when having a baby would present significant problems for them. So even if abortion is not medically required, it should be permitted, made as widely available as possible and, when necessary, paid for with taxpayers' money. Read more here.
Obama is the most liberal pro abortion candidate we have ever had. He will use our tax payers money to pay for abortion. If you are even considering a vote for Obama just think about killing babies.
It took me a while to put the pieces together, but I think I’ve figured out what’s had the Obama camp so worried about the Chicago Annenberg Challenge records. It goes way beyond Bill Ayers. In fact, it connects the dots between Ayers, Jeremiah Wright, and Obama’s own early radicalism. I lay out the details today in my new piece, "Wright 101." The gist of what I found is that, from his position as board chair at the Chicago Annenberg Challenge, Barack Obama was funneling hundreds of thousands of dollars to education programs built around the same extremist anti-American ideology preached by Jeremiah Wright. As I argue in today’s piece, this puts the Wright issue back in play in this campaign. John McCain, take note. Obama’s tie to Wright is no longer a purely personal question (if it ever was one) about one man’s choice of his pastor. The fact that Obama funded extremist Afrocentrists who shared Wright’s anti-Americanism means that this is now a matter of public policy, and therefore an entirely legitimate issue in this campaign.
African Village In the winter of 1996, the Coalition for Improved Education in [Chicago’s] South Shore (CIESS) announced that it had received a $200,000 grant from the Chicago Annenberg Challenge. That made CIESS an “external partner,” i.e. a community organization linked to a network of schools within the Chicago public system. This network, named the “South Shore African Village Collaborative” was thoroughly “Afrocentric” in orientation. CIESS’s job was to use a combination of teacher-training, curriculum advice, and community involvement to improve academic performance in the schools it worked with. CIESS would continue to receive large Annenberg grants throughout the 1990s.
The South Shore African Village Collaborative (SSAVC) was very much a part of the Afrocentric “rites of passage movement,” a fringe education crusade of the 1990s. SSAVC schools featured “African-Centered” curricula built around “rites of passage” ceremonies inspired by the puberty rites found in many African societies. In and of themselves, these ceremonies were harmless. Yet the philosophy that accompanied them was not. On the contrary, it was a carbon-copy of Jeremiah Wright’s worldview.
Quick update on Dad; Last week was a long and tiring week for him. I took them in on Monday which was a full day at the Huntsman Cancer Center for replacement of his biliary drainage tube. Tuesday he had 2 sessions of radiation at 10:00 a.m. and 4:00 p.m., Wednesday was a repeat of the same schedule he had Tuesday. Thursday was a follow up and moving the biliary drainage tube in place for it to drain internally. I had meetings and some work obligations and was unable to spend the full week with them; thank goodness for my good wife who spent these days with Mom and Dad, driving them and supporting them so they would not be alone. She was great, and was thrilled for a little time to sit still and get the binding completed on two quilts! Dad was very tired from all this and spent the weekend resting; the majority of his time in bed. But by Sunday evening he was up, dressed and sitting in his chair watching Fox News. He had a few visitors on Sunday and enjoyed that. Home health has started coming. They will come three times a week. The first visit from them was on Saturday, they came today also. This will be good for him since they will attend to any needs; bathing, checking vitals, helping him walk to get some exercise, monitoring pain, etc.
His next follow up with his Dr. is on October 20th, with his Medical Oncologist. That appointment will be to follow up on his treatment schedule and see how he is feeling overall. The Medical oncologist does an overview of all his treatment and coordinates with the other entire oncologist for his needs. He has follow up appointments with his Interventional Oncologist and his Radiation Oncologist on November 18th, at this time they should be able to see if there has been any change in the tumor.
Thank you all so much for your love, prayers and support in behalf of Dad and all our family. I express how grateful I am for the healing power of the Saviors Atonement, not only for my sins, but for the strength to endure all pains, and afflictions of mortality.
Thought you would like to see James' family that was taken a couple of weeks ago. He has one daughter Shaila (the blonde with curly hair) and one son Dirk on the back row in the middle. Shaila and her husband Brad have 5 sons, 2 daughter in laws; Dirk and his wife Ellen have 2 sons and 2 daughters. Aren't they a good looking family?
I talked with James on the phone this evening (Thursday). He sounded good considering all he has been through this week but the good news is HE MADE IT THROUGH THE WEEK. I ask him if he felt like the had been through the wringer and he said "Yes and the dryer too". At least he hasn't lost his sense of humor. I ask him if they changed the tube into his bile duct and he really didn't know. I guess he was pretty much knocked out. He is to go back in a month and half I believe and I guess they will just check to see if there is any change in the tumor. Please pray that the tumor will shrink and he will get some strength back in the mean time. Thanks for all of your prayers and please do not stop now. James has a wonderful attitude and that is so important. Eph. 3 says God is able to do exceedingly above all we dare ask or think. So I am asking for a complete healing. I still hate cancer.
This country is certainly in a mess. The news is depressing and the election is down right scary. Many Christians quote the scripture,
"If my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and heal their land." 2 Chronicles 7:14
God is calling us to humble ourselves and pray about this election.
I have been doing an online bible study called "Setting the Captives Free". In my study today was a section on repentance which is the same as "turn from their wicked ways". Repentance is more than just saying "I'm sorry".
James 4:8-10 says, "Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up." That is a little more than saying I'm sorry. We need to have some action.
(Oswald Chambers _My Utmost For His Highest_ December 7th Devotional) says: "Conviction of sin is one of the rarest things that ever strikes a man. It is the threshold of an understanding of God. Jesus Christ said that when the Holy Spirit came He would convict of sin, and when the Holy Spirit rouses a man's conscience and brings him into the presence of God, it is not his relationship with men that bothers him, but his relationship with God--against Thee, Thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in Thy sight. Conviction of sin, the marvel of forgiveness, and holiness are so interwoven that it is only the forgiven man who is the holy man, he proves he is forgiven by being the opposite to what he was, by God's grace. Repentance always brings a man to this point: I have sinned. The surest sign that God is at work is when a man says that and means it. Anything less than this is remorse for having made blunders, the reflex action of disgust at himself.
The entrance into the Kingdom is through the panging pains of repentance crashing into a man's respectable goodness; then the Holy Ghost, Who produces these agonies, begins the formation of the Son of God in the life. The new life will manifest itself in conscious repentance and unconscious holiness, never the other way about. The bedrock of Christianity is repentance. Strictly speaking, a man cannot repent when he chooses; repentance is a gift of God. The old Puritans used to pray for the gift of tears. If ever you cease to know the virtue of repentance, you are in darkness. Examine yourself and see if you have forgotten how to be sorry."
Did you catch that repentance is a gift from God? This truth comes from 2 Timothy. I never thought about repentance being a GIFT from God.
Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will. 2 Timothy 2:25-26
Maybe we should be praying for the GIFT OF REPENTANCE as well as 2nd Chronicles 7:14 Someone recently gave me this definition of repentance. Burning down the house and salting the field. Nothing left to go back to. Think about that.
Recently I received this prayer by email by Billy Graham. It might be a good prayer for us to use...what do you think?
Billy Graham's prayer aired by Paul Harvey........................... THIS GUY SURE HAS A GOOD VIEW OF WHAT'S HAPPENING TO THIS COUNTRY! PAUL HARVEY'S ON- AIR PRAYER
'Heavenly Father, we come before you today to ask your forgiveness and to seek your direction and guidance. We know Your Word says, 'Woe to those who call evil good,' but that is exactly what we have done. We have lost our spiritual equilibrium and reversed our values. We have exploited the poor and called it the lottery. We have rewarded laziness and called it welfare. We have killed our unborn and called it choice. We have shot abortionists and called it justifiable. We have neglected to discipline our children and called it building self esteem. We have abused power and called it politics. We have coveted our neighbor's possessions and called it ambition We have polluted the air with profanity and pornography and called it freedom of expression. We have ridiculed the time-honored values of our forefathers and called it enlightenment. Search us, Oh God, and know our hearts today; cleanse us from every sin and Set us free. Amen!'
Commentator Paul Harvey aired this prayer on his radio program, 'The Rest of the Story,' and received a larger response to this program than any other he has ever aired. With the Lord's help, may this prayer sweep over our nation and wholeheartedly become our desire so that we again can be called 'One nation under God.'
If possible, please pass this prayer on to your friends. 'If you don't stand for something, you will fall for everything.' We need to pray for the gift of repentance.
Dad had a fever on Sat. night late and Dirk called the oncologist on call at the Huntsman Cancer Center and he said to take him into the ER there in town and tell them the story and that if they need to, to call him. He said the tube has an infection (on the inside). So, they gave him an IV and filled him with antibiotics and then have him 2 diff. kinds to take at home. Today they are changing the tube as planned so... continue to pray.
Mary Lu talked to Shari today. It was a long day. James did have an infection. They replaced the tube and tomorrow they will start the radiation. One in the morning and one in the afternoon. The same on Wednesday and then one on Thursday. It is going to be a hard week. Please pray for strength for James and Shari.
Sorry that I have not updated my blog. I was out of town for a few days and then my computer was down for a few days. I planned to go to the library on Friday to use the computer and at least put up an update on James but for some reason it was closed. I got this email schedule from James' wife Shari today. I talked with her yesterday and she said he was weak and continues to lose weight. He has made the decision to do the radiation but not the chemo.
James starts his radiation treatments next week............
At Huntsman Cancer Center U of U Salt Lake
Monday 10-6 He will go in at 8am and have his tube replaced and positioned getting ready for the wire radiation. Then at 11am he will have another CT scan.
Tues. 10-7 He will have his first radiation treatment at 10am then go back at 4pm and have his 2nd treatment.
Wed. 10-8 He will have his 3rd treatment at 10am then go back for his 4th treatment at 4pm.
Thurs. 10-8 He will go in at 9am to have his tube replaced and repositioned.
We are hoping he will be up to all of this and praying also that this treatment will do the job on the tumor. It was the size of a quarter and shaped oblong according to the last CT scan. We hope that it has not grown. We will let you know how things go.